Simplicity is the key. Found out some pretty interestingly simple yet workable strategy today. Mind-blowing it is. So simple. And it’s been there all along. How could i have missed it. So gonna try it out. Still would need more testing though. Let the new journey begins! Lord, guide me through this journey.
“Any intelligent fool can make things bigger and more complex… It takes a touch of genius — and a lot of courage to move in the opposite direction.” – Albert Einstein
Recent few weeks, probably since Chinese New Year week till now, have been in touch back on weekly basis with close friends from high school. Doing things together again. House-party, yum cha, meals, drank beer, badminton, leisure trip. And it’s real good times. Really missed those times with them. I wondered what have happened in the past 5-6 years. Have not seen them much, or have gone out much. Maybe only during some special occasions like birthday or yearly meet up. Probably different college and friends to hang out does come into factor. Ah wells, who cares about the time that has past right? More important is now. Now that we are together more again. I wonder when will this stop. Really hope it doesn’t.
It’s really good to see them again. Most have not changed much since high school. Character wise, physical look wise. Some grew wider la, but guess that’s as much. But yeah nevertheless, they have grown in experience and thinking, which is good to see.
Was just like a blink of eye from high school to now. High school days seems like was just yesterday. Today all in working life already. I really wonder where these friendship will head to from now onward. Probably a bond that could last for the lifetime, God-willing.
Stay-tuned yo!
I wondered what happened in the past one year. It seemed to have just passed just like that. Felt nothing much has been achieved (career wise, spiritual wise). Probably have been too complacent at where i am at. sometimes i do hate this part of life. but feeling some pressure now. Pressure starting to build up. It’s about time to really do something! Take action Tat! Do something with your life!!
Planning on helping others. Have quite some options in hand at the moment.
Lord, give me wisdom, give me strength to persevere on whatever i do. May your name be glorified. Help me to honor and worship you no matter what happens o Lord.
I actually drafted this during Nov ’10. But it was incomplete and so it stayed in my drafts till now that i decided to complete it. =)
Had this privilege to be home to take care of grandma in the past 1.5 months.. She was partial paralyzed from stroke.. this is the second time she has gotten it… Her private doctor did mention of a mortality rate of 70% for people who suffered from stroke the second time.. And i did tremble for some moment after hearing that.. But thank God her condition got stabilized and now in the process of recovery… The recovery process could be of much more pain as it really takes some time for her to ‘re-learn’ how to use back her left limbs.. Can see that she really struggles at time seeing her own left hand couldn’t move.. I really wonder what goes through her mind… Really a pain in the ass seeing her sadness.. On top of all that, the super bitterness of her medication contributes even more to the pains she feel atm..
But having said all of the above, I’ve surely came to realize more of her in this small time period.. I guess I’ve taken for granted her presence all this while… She had taken care of me since i was zero.. A grandma like a mom.. My heart aches thinking about her.. How old she has grown throughout the years.. How I’ve been treating her (really took for granted)… But i guess it’s human nature, to only start realizing and appreciating things when it’s gone or when it’s about to gone.. A well-known lesson but yet we choose to go through the hard way to learn about it! Why does this happen so often? Why are we so blinded by all the things of the world, and miss the very important things that is right before our eyes all the time?
Yeah it is true that we are people growing up, and we have to get our lives going, we have to build our careers and family and etc. Some may already have a family that need to be taken care of.. I don’t mean all these are bad, just trying to say that there are things to be of higher priority, and we do really need to get our priorities right! [that was some of my frustrations in this period.. alot of my aunts and uncles (children of my grandma) are just too busy with their own 'thing'.. I guess I couldn't be judging them as I don't think I'm in a position to, but surely i did a lil at the beginning! their mom being admitted into hospital and all, most of them have to be told to come visit! and i can so tell you that if i had not 'organize' and tell them to come, i really wonder if they'll turn up that many times.. I can't believe how busy they were.. At one point of time, I got sick of needing to let them know when they 'need' to come pay a visit, and I just told them to come at whenever they want to come.. surely enough they came much much lesser, and one kinda did not turn up at all for like 3 weeks.. really no eye see.. i just don't quite understand their busy-ness... did they really got consumed by their work? Or were they just unable to leave the 'invisible prison' they were in...? ] Whatever the cause is, at least I’m now more certain about the things I do… At least I do think it will help to avoid this ‘invisible prison’ that many doesn’t see..
Surely enough i have SO much time with myself and with God in this period.. had a good amount of praying, reading and thinking… One biggest part is on the handling of my emotions.. I have to say that I got more easily frustrated about things, just anything, small thing big thing, in this time period. Didn’t had much appetite as well. Just ate for the sake of filling up the stomach.. Cause when my world seem to be falling apart, I guess all these just come along with it..
All in all, just wanna thank God that he had seen me through all those emotional roller coaster and all those times when I’m down.. Surely enough that the love and grace that He has for me that sustained me and brought me through all of this, and allowed me to grow in Him.. to grow more in love with Him.. Thank You! In this new year, I’m excited to see more of his work to be done in my life.. =)
Listen with an open mind.. It may trigger questions you would have never thought of..
It is crucial to understand the fundamentals of how the market was created, designed, and manipulated… Cause we are in it, whether you like it or not.. =)
p/s: there are 5 parts in total. watch all of it!
this post is specially written as a memorial of 3.5 years of studies in Monash University. Just took my final paper exactly 12 hours ago. Now it’s all up to July 15th 2010 for results day! Actual date of results release is 16th July.. But we always get it the evening before. lol. it’s just how it works.. It is one of those things of Monash..
I wanna say the load/burden has been lifted off my shoulders. But somehow I feel something so bigg is just coming.. But yeah for now I really feel that light.. Strictly at this time of moment only… I’ll re-comment 2 months later.. Ohhh and I’m quite sleepy and dead tired, BUT I just wanna spend my time for myself now.. here i am… (this is how u spend ur time by yourself? sadly happily yeah.. haha)
Monash Clayton is GOOOOOOD! Best year of my life! (up to this date) That was 2009. I shall concentrate more on Monash Sunway. To be exact it’s only 2.5 years that I’m in this campus. Been seeing it going thru it’s biggest change I can say. Started with sharing space with Sunway College to having it’s own campus, the Monash University Sunway Campus. And it’s still growing! I really wonder how more it will grow.. I guess only time could tell.. Anyways, it feels real good to be studying on a campus itself! Not so much when sharing with some other college. More sense of belonging.. haha..
In all my years here, and all the subjects I did, some lecturers and tutors are very good but only a handful of them. And the rest u know lar. So i would conclude that the quality of education provided is just so so. This is solely based on the majors am doing.. not Monash as a whole. but i guess it’s a guideline? haha..
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Some things that will remember about Monash Uni:
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I’ve been majoring in econometrics and finance. But most subjects are econometrics tho. Cause i dropped finance later in time. why? just not interested in it. To sum it all up, in all these years of uni, I’ve been learning about building models, building more models, building much more models. Then improving on models, different assumptions, different distributions, different formulas, different forecasting method, different statistical tests. hrmmm did i miss out anything? haha…
Can’t see any relevance. Not only no relevance, I’m going against what i’ve studied. haha.. this is so interesting.. Let me explain more.. What i’m actually interested now is the forex market.. i guess u can really say it’s an interest.. not really about making big money out of it… but am really playing on this thin line of worshiping God and worshiping money.. what i’ve studied in 3.5 years tells me that i can understand why is the market trending.. but it tells me that i CAN’T actually know/predict when will the market change trend.. that is what my 3.5 years of Monash told me… now, i believe that the market is actually being controlled.. and I CAN actually know when the trend is changing.. even to the precise points… really finding this very entertaining and mind-blowing.. Can u imagine if the whole market is really being controlled? if u can, can u imagine if u can also find out whenabouts are the trend change and all? how cool is that? Am looking into it now… =)
Be blessed!
Ancora Imparo = Still learning. Always is! Love this motto…
Just had church camp over the past weekend. It was an awesome camp!! filled with: God’s presence. Good fellowship. Delicious food. Nice chilly weather. Good ping pong session. Cold and hot showers. Laughters.
Camp was held over at Chefoo in Cameron Highlands. Nice and relaxing place. Away from city life. Away from super hot weather. Definitely an awesome choice of place for camp! It was a 4 days 3 nights camp.
What did I do there? Praise God. Worship God. Studying the Word of God. Knowing God better. Knowing God’s people better. Fellowshipped with fellow campers. Makan-ed. Prayed. Games. Activities. Ping pong. Basketball. Badminton. Guitar-ed. Had fun. Had more fun. Had more more fun! haha…
The theme for the camp is “Live by faith not by sight”. I really learnt a lot from this camp! The Word came at the right time as well. Am really going through challenging times! Something really really big. Something beyond what I think I can comprehend. But I do believe that He won’t give me something that I couldn’t handle. And also that He will watch over me, teach me, and guide me through this situation I’m in.
The camp really do teach me to submit more to God. And to rely more on Him. Not just to rely, but to seek Him first in all things! These words are surely easier said than done. Often we only really seek Him when we arrive at a very dead end after trying our ways. Definitely had first hand experience of life application of the Word in the camp. Mind was really troubled by some things during camp. It’s really easy to say submit all of it to God. But it’s really hard to actually do it yourself. Believe me. At least it was true for my first time. But managed to submit in the end. Hope I really learnt from this and it would be easier in the future. A lot of times before this, words remains just words. Hate to say it. But its very true of a statement for me. This is one of the times where i really put into practice something that i learn.
Really felt closer to Him after the camp. Maybe I’ve been a lil stagnant for a lil too long. And it was surely refreshing to be back on track. hehe.. Thank You. Surely it has been a great camp. Seeing and meeting so many people who have passion and enthusiasm for God. It really helps to encourage each other in our walk with God.
Am really amazed with the team I was leading. Yup, I was leading a team! I was being suggested to be team leader. Something I’ve not really done before. Have no idea at all what I’ll be going through or how am I gonna do it. Just thought might be a door opened for me to grow. So yup accepted it. And I can say I really did learn a lot on how to be a leader! Found out so many things that I should do as a leader. Was really a pure naive thinking accepting to be leader when i don’t know much. But am glad I made that decision. Really opened my eyes to many areas that I would have missed.
Had a picture with my teammates. Really great people they are. Leader from RJBC. Doctor. And there is a public figure as well in my group. How awesome is that!! And their humbleness and their knowledge of the Word of God just amazed me! Really great to know them and have a shared experience with them although it was just for a few days long.
My team: Heart of Christ (we got 2nd place! woohooo!)
Another thing I realized is that, it is so easy for one to lose sight of the real joy around when your heart is so into winning an event. Really do think that enjoying the bond together and work with each other is far more important than to win the event. Only realised it after. Shall be mindful of it the next time.
My final thoughts for the camp is that it is definitely a camp to be cherished and remembered!
Amen.
Hey You,
so, how’s life? i also not quite sure how to describe how my life is now… when asked, i’ll just do the normal reply, “am quite alrite”.. but seriously.. with all the things that are happening around me, i really don’t know how to respond to them anymore.. feeling really weak, and powerless.. feel like just to ignore all of the things and get on with my own life.. but yet i couldn’t, i guess they do have tight bonds inside me… and what my life would have been without them.. can’t imagine it.. but yet it’s really hard to face them and to respond to all the things that is happening.. why o Lord that my life has to be this way? why o Lord that i can’t just have a happy family like everyone does.. sure do had some jealousy looking at people with their family… although they may not be happy all the time, if not one or two quarrels, they sure do are together most of the time.. i guess that’s what i’m just asking for… just being able to be together.. just able to live in harmony.. just go through the days together…
some of you might have known about me thoroughly, but i guess most of you have not… so i think i shall be a lil more transparent here.. i might have been a happy go lucky optimistic sarcastic and wonderful outside, but it’s really an irony, coz in the inside, when times alone like this, i’m also just another person with broken heart, all confused, all emotional, someone that just wanna run away, and just leave all the not so happy things behind… but i couldn’t.. and yet i couldn’t do much to repair what is going on… it’s really out of my power to do so.. one thing just come after another… one by one just had to make her heart worried for.. one by one just have to make her unhappy… one by one just contributes to her sickness.. all i could say is that i loved her, but yet i can’t do much to lighten her worries and sickness.. the impact of others is just too great on her.. her is grandma… i guess i could just pray for her, and all things that i’m going through..
sometimes really do feel so broken from all these.. and couldn’t continue this journey anymore… but i know He is watching over all this that is happening.. i know that i could find hope in Him when everything else seems to be hopeless.. and i know that His love for me does lift me up in moments like this… and am grateful and am thankful~
am starting my journey to find my genuine faith in Him (some may have known it as gf).. i don’t know how am going to do this, or how long will i take, but i guess it’s a journey i must walk myself.. only then i could find what i’m looking for ……….. genuine faith!
- though the world seems to forget, we will not forget who You are and what You’ve done for us -
a few songs that used to be my favourites, like into it last time.. just thought to share.. =D still enjoy them!
song 1: Halo by Haley James Scott (Bethany Joy Lenz)
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song 2: Soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield
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song 3: Think of you by Lionel Richie (this one quite recent – last year)
