Last year was the first Christmas that I’ve actually celebrated.. Celebrated with my family of Christ here.. It’s been quite a Christmas indeed… to understand that there is actually a true meaning to Christmas.. Loved caroling, always thought its just singing Christmas songs, didn’t really know the lyrics before this, only kinda know the melody from neighbours’ carols… Just recently learnt quite some carols, and they actually had meaning of Christmas written all over..

Left 14 days in Melbourne.. What else that I still wanna do here in my last days that yet to be accomplished? hrmm.. been thinking for the past week on this… One of the places I would really love to go is Mt. Oberon.. Been there once… Definitely gonna go again before leaving Aus.. Most beautiful place I’ve been to… Shall wait for a less hot day to make this trip.. Hopefully there will be one.. Hehe… Other than that, don’t seem to have much places that I wanna visit already I guess.. Just spending time with the people here kua..

One of the things that impacted me the most in the past year is ‘love’… People here really opened my eyes to see what love actually is.. And to what extend it can be used.. Or more specificly, I had my definition of love redefined.. And its beautiful… =) somehow the kind of love I felt in the past year was really a special & unique one.. Over the last 10 months here in Australia, most of the time are spent with my friends here, the relationship built was kinda much stronger and more family-like, as we spend quite some time together, doing stuff together, cared for each other more, cooked for each other, concern for each other, etc. Why is this so? Maybe friends are all we have here, when we are overseas.. Maybe its just the situation and environment.. Will look further into this later, but all in all,  its been amazing to just gone through all that I’ve been through in the past year… It could never been a better 2009. =) Hope I could learn and bring back something from all of these…

Last year resolution review:

Hrmm.. how to put it… I kinda failed in some of the “goals” i set last semester.. Specificly these 3…

• To grow more in the relationship with Him. [ I guessed I somehow did? ups and downs, accelerations and pauses, i guessed i camped at a certain point.. rested enough already, shall start climbing again.. =) ]
• To get pumped up with knowledge for FOREX. [ failed ]
• To master guitar playing. (At least 5 full songs) [ kinda got it done ]

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(just my brain wondering during free times)

I think we do learn a lot of things here and there everywhere.. Just that we did not really take to heart about it and practice/put into use/apply what we have learned.. Many things look so common, simple BUT strong concepts that could be picked up in everyday life and applied in almost everything… Eg. don’t be a quitter, don’t do things halfheartedly, persevere till the finish line… etc

Persevering till you reach the finish line, this one kinda came up to me again when I was doing rock climbing last Monday.. Climbed quite a few walls… Some easy ones, some challenging ones.. At some point in time, where I’m like more than half way through, but got quite drained out from trying to cross the diff part, my mind is like pushing myself up, or rather keeping myself from not letting go (or to give up).. At the top of each wall, had a sense of achievement… Great feeling indeed. Will remind myself of these simple things more..

Another thought:

Have you felt like the more you know about something, the less you understand it? Or is it just me? Coz I think I’m going through that stage at times…

Quoted from coach carter the movie

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Don’t quit!

Question of the week….

What does it mean to love God?

Last post Nov 1, hrmmmmm, i guess i got busier after my exams! whooops…. hahaa

A lot of events and activities have taken place in this period i was away from blogging… Hiking trip at Grampians, surprise birthday parties, spending time with people who are leaving Aussie before me, farewell parties (been to quite a few of them already, next up should be mine?) I really did max-ed out the past month of holidays… For the first time in holidays history it was fully booked… or rather a lil over-booked.. Did not even to manage to stay at home for a day, up till 2 days back… I ain’t complaining though.. but i kinda went over spending budget already? definitely… but oh wells, another month here only i left..

Booked flight back at 18 Jan 2010.. It’s a very early morning flight! should i change it to later? hmmm maybe.. maybe not… So yup kinda confirmed my flight back to be that date already… Counting down from today, 35 days to go.. Whoa its lesser than what I thought it was this afternoon where i made a rough estimation of about 40days left… exactly 5 weeks… 6 sundays more to go (including today – for church)… 5 thursdays (for LifeGroup).. not much time left eh? wad should i be doing from now till then..? What should be my priority(s)? Can’t imagine myself leaving!! How would I respond on the day i leave? **wonders** even for now, feelings and emotions are not calm everytime i put myself in that situation…

Putting all else aside, plans for coming week, tues and thurs have graduations.. wed gonna get my h1n1 vaccination… friday night xmas bbq at COC, welcoming everyone who are interested (lemme know!)..

Celebrating Christmas for the first time! Looking forward to that.. hehe yup, shall get some rest now. Ta…

Something big is near…

Exam is in four days.. Holidays is 10 days to go… Which should i be looking at now? Exam of coz!! Let’s do this..

Song: Let’s think about our God …..by Women of faith

one similarity

Just a thought that came up to me this evening.

There is one similarity between ALL characteristics/personalities/status that I will list below.. Can you see it? =)

- poor or rich

- academically successful or academically not successful

- pretty or not so pretty / handsome or not so handsome

- with limbs or without limbs

- happy or upset

- classy or normal slacky look

- with sight or without sight

- black or white

- sensitive or insensitive (in general – to surroundings, to other ppl)

- female or male

- geeky or nerdy

- asian or australian or american

- can speak or mute

What i wanna say is…. We are all God’s creation.. He created us with certain characteristics, personalities, and put us in situations that we’ve gone through or going through for a reason… It is not by luck that we are who we are, and we are at where we are.. We shall not despise people of their looks or attitude or status or anything at all, which could hinder us from knowing that someone, or to help that someone, or to be their friend or companion.. There are surely something we could learn from them, or teach them, for either one of us or both together growing to be a better person..

hmmmm……..

I don’t really know why i think of such things.. or rather where I’m trying to head to here in this topic…

(Updated Oct 13, 2009)

Just a lil update on similar thoughts! Whoever you are, however you look like, whatever characteristics you have, whatever habits you possess, YOU are ALL God’s unique creation! God created you, giving you a particular look, a particular characteristic, grown up in a particular family, puts you in a particular situation in your life. Don’t be ashamed to be yourself! You do not have to be someone else to please others! Be yourself. And acknowledge Him. That pleases Him. =)

dejavu

These few days have some dejavu feeling… Is it really dejavu? Or coz I’m beginning to do things repeatedly without much aim? It’s like half way doing something then realised that its like I’ve done this before. Exact same moment, exact same environment, exact same thing. A lil scary. Happened before few times.. But these few days like experiencing/realising more of it. Hmmm, what is happening to me or in me…

Ain’t feeling very good as I write now. Feeling like falling sick. This is a bad. I don’t wanna fall sick..

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(40 minutes later)

Hmmm, I’m feeling kinda good now.. Just ate a big plate of rice with chicken and some vege… It tasted good. And its filling.. Guess I was hungry earlier? Maybe it explains the not feeling well.. But dejavu is still something to think about… Time to bath and do QT and read my 40-day book.. =P

Sept 8 – Sept 18

Its been a long week.. Never ending assignments to do… One after another.. Just done one today! Actually not that many work, just that I laze here and there till sorta last minute… Something that I have been trying to change in myself.. Tried.. and tried, and tried… ALright……………. maybe i didn’t REALLY tried that hard.. =P

Finally found some time to come update.. wanted update on my birthday d.. But was filled mainly by assignments, but not to forget an event, my birthday celebration, an event in this special day which overcomes ALL I’ve gone through.. The joy, the happiness, the friends, the love, on that one day suppressed every other things I can say that happened the whole year!

There were a session or two on sharings about me, which I did not expect much out of it.. Coz I thought I wasn’t that significant.. But it certainly blew me away with all those that have said of me… Its like bringing me through the whole journey of my life here all over again.. big pieces and some of the small bits… some which I can’t even recall doing.. So amazing that little things I did, was remembered and appreciated so well.. Really open my eyes to appreciate the very little things that people has done in my life…

A very dear brother did a video for me.. Which again brought me through my journey here… A short and simple video.. But finely done… Felt that someone was video-ing me all this while.. But it was a great video, with a great song… Thank you, Jason.. Feel free to see as video is attached.. =)

Choice of song is awesome!! Almost teared when see the video. Thank you again.

One thing I wanna mention is that I’m really really blessed to have this family.. To come to know of them.. A family where I feel friendship, feel love, feel happy, feel awesome, and feel the oneness. Oneness for God.. Is this the love from God? It feels real warm, wonderful, tender, something I can’t put much into words.. I can feel it now, this very moment… Savouring it, every moment of it.. Wishing it will last forever long… Thank you God for this moment. Jie just told there will be more, but it might not be the same exact moment like this. But I’m really looking forward to that.. I want more of you O Lord… I want more of you…..

Song: The God I Know……… by City Harvest Church

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09.09.09

How beautiful it is. A date so special. A day so significant. The day i celebrated my 21st. With my family, family of Christ. A day filled with so much love. A day definitely not to be forgotten. It’s truly a remarkable day!! Thank God and thank you all for this day. God bless ~

<Quoted from my facebook status>

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reflection 2

What is the point of acknowledging what I’m lacking and not doing anything about it?

This question just came up to me, and I thought it would be something good to reflect on.

I’m lacking of:

• intimacy with God.
• knowledge on my studies, and on certain other areas.

I know that I desire to be more intimate with God. Desire is a good start. Desire to know more itself is certainly not enough from what I can see! I need to do more than just desire. I need to take necessary actions and steps!! Always remember that, with my own strength, not everything seems possible, BUT with His strength, everything IS possible! Seek him for strength to strive on when things seems to not work out the way it should be. All in all, do something! Don’t just have the desire there. Use the desire to my advantage to move forward!

The song that I trying to reflect on its meaning and its message: I offer my life

Will work towards the message! =)

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Post update on Sept 7, 2009:

What does it mean to really offer my life to the Lord? Submission of all of myself to Him? Have I surrender all of myself to Him? As in everything that is happening around me and of me, have I surrendered it all? Or am I still holding things to myself, going in my own ways? To know his ways, I have to first know what he has done, and then understand what has he done.