Something big is near…

Exam is in four days.. Holidays is 10 days to go… Which should i be looking at now? Exam of coz!! Let’s do this..

Song: Let’s think about our God …..by Women of faith

one similarity

Just a thought that came up to me this evening.

There is one similarity between ALL characteristics/personalities/status that I will list below.. Can you see it? =)

- poor or rich

- academically successful or academically not successful

- pretty or not so pretty / handsome or not so handsome

- with limbs or without limbs

- happy or upset

- classy or normal slacky look

- with sight or without sight

- black or white

- sensitive or insensitive (in general – to surroundings, to other ppl)

- female or male

- geeky or nerdy

- asian or australian or american

- can speak or mute

What i wanna say is…. We are all God’s creation.. He created us with certain characteristics, personalities, and put us in situations that we’ve gone through or going through for a reason… It is not by luck that we are who we are, and we are at where we are.. We shall not despise people of their looks or attitude or status or anything at all, which could hinder us from knowing that someone, or to help that someone, or to be their friend or companion.. There are surely something we could learn from them, or teach them, for either one of us or both together growing to be a better person..

hmmmm……..

I don’t really know why i think of such things.. or rather where I’m trying to head to here in this topic…

(Updated Oct 13, 2009)

Just a lil update on similar thoughts! Whoever you are, however you look like, whatever characteristics you have, whatever habits you possess, YOU are ALL God’s unique creation! God created you, giving you a particular look, a particular characteristic, grown up in a particular family, puts you in a particular situation in your life. Don’t be ashamed to be yourself! You do not have to be someone else to please others! Be yourself. And acknowledge Him. That pleases Him. =)

dejavu

These few days have some dejavu feeling… Is it really dejavu? Or coz I’m beginning to do things repeatedly without much aim? It’s like half way doing something then realised that its like I’ve done this before. Exact same moment, exact same environment, exact same thing. A lil scary. Happened before few times.. But these few days like experiencing/realising more of it. Hmmm, what is happening to me or in me…

Ain’t feeling very good as I write now. Feeling like falling sick. This is a bad. I don’t wanna fall sick..

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(40 minutes later)

Hmmm, I’m feeling kinda good now.. Just ate a big plate of rice with chicken and some vege… It tasted good. And its filling.. Guess I was hungry earlier? Maybe it explains the not feeling well.. But dejavu is still something to think about… Time to bath and do QT and read my 40-day book.. =P

Sept 8 – Sept 18

Its been a long week.. Never ending assignments to do… One after another.. Just done one today! Actually not that many work, just that I laze here and there till sorta last minute… Something that I have been trying to change in myself.. Tried.. and tried, and tried… ALright……………. maybe i didn’t REALLY tried that hard.. =P

Finally found some time to come update.. wanted update on my birthday d.. But was filled mainly by assignments, but not to forget an event, my birthday celebration, an event in this special day which overcomes ALL I’ve gone through.. The joy, the happiness, the friends, the love, on that one day suppressed every other things I can say that happened the whole year!

There were a session or two on sharings about me, which I did not expect much out of it.. Coz I thought I wasn’t that significant.. But it certainly blew me away with all those that have said of me… Its like bringing me through the whole journey of my life here all over again.. big pieces and some of the small bits… some which I can’t even recall doing.. So amazing that little things I did, was remembered and appreciated so well.. Really open my eyes to appreciate the very little things that people has done in my life…

A very dear brother did a video for me.. Which again brought me through my journey here… A short and simple video.. But finely done… Felt that someone was video-ing me all this while.. But it was a great video, with a great song… Thank you, Jason.. Feel free to see as video is attached.. =)

Choice of song is awesome!! Almost teared when see the video. Thank you again.

One thing I wanna mention is that I’m really really blessed to have this family.. To come to know of them.. A family where I feel friendship, feel love, feel happy, feel awesome, and feel the oneness. Oneness for God.. Is this the love from God? It feels real warm, wonderful, tender, something I can’t put much into words.. I can feel it now, this very moment… Savouring it, every moment of it.. Wishing it will last forever long… Thank you God for this moment. Jie just told there will be more, but it might not be the same exact moment like this. But I’m really looking forward to that.. I want more of you O Lord… I want more of you…..

Song: The God I Know……… by City Harvest Church

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09.09.09

How beautiful it is. A date so special. A day so significant. The day i celebrated my 21st. With my family, family of Christ. A day filled with so much love. A day definitely not to be forgotten. It’s truly a remarkable day!! Thank God and thank you all for this day. God bless ~

<Quoted from my facebook status>

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reflection 2

What is the point of acknowledging what I’m lacking and not doing anything about it?

This question just came up to me, and I thought it would be something good to reflect on.

I’m lacking of:

• intimacy with God.
• knowledge on my studies, and on certain other areas.

I know that I desire to be more intimate with God. Desire is a good start. Desire to know more itself is certainly not enough from what I can see! I need to do more than just desire. I need to take necessary actions and steps!! Always remember that, with my own strength, not everything seems possible, BUT with His strength, everything IS possible! Seek him for strength to strive on when things seems to not work out the way it should be. All in all, do something! Don’t just have the desire there. Use the desire to my advantage to move forward!

The song that I trying to reflect on its meaning and its message: I offer my life

Will work towards the message! =)

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Post update on Sept 7, 2009:

What does it mean to really offer my life to the Lord? Submission of all of myself to Him? Have I surrender all of myself to Him? As in everything that is happening around me and of me, have I surrendered it all? Or am I still holding things to myself, going in my own ways? To know his ways, I have to first know what he has done, and then understand what has he done.

Ian’s bucks day

29th Aug

Today was out whole day, for Song’s bucks day event.. Pretty cool day!! We, about 20 of us, did loads of stuff… Started of loitering at Ian’s place at about 10.40am for about half an hour or so, then heads off to Go-Kart at Moorabbin.. Go-Karting is simply marvelous.. Didn’t know it is so thrilling… Haha! Maybe have not been driving much… And finally got a good chance to drive.. 10 laps of qualifying + 18 rounds of racing.. We were kinda divided into two groups to race, a less aggressive ones and another is slightly more aggressive (with some accident & crashing).. After all the thrills, all the skiddings, all the corners, end up at second place… Not bad for a first timer ler.. =D Go-Kart is so cool!

After go kart, headed to Chew’s place, to hang out. Bought some pizzas, pastas and soft drinks… 20 hungry guys 5 large pizzas.. -.-” isn’t it quite obvious it ain’t enough? ;p so end up went order again.. Almost spend whole time there playing wrestling game on ps3.. Just last hour played some stunt-driving game.. This is the first time I kinda into the wrestling game.. lol

By 5.30pm, we left Chew’s place and head to Sidetracked at Huntingdale Road for laser tag.. Kinda got highscore for a few games though.. although i don’t know how i did it.. but it just happened… lol.. The lame one played too, in 4/5 games.. believe it or not, he did play, then got slightly injured by teammate accidentally so last game didn’t get to play.. Hope he’ll be fine…

Finally, we finish laser tag at about 7.20pm.. Then we are off for our dinner… Dinner was at Hogs Breath, somewhere along Warrigal Road.. They serve wonderful steak! Ordered garlic prawn prime rib.. It was simply fantastic… The taste and the texture.. A meal completed with a cup of lemon lime bitters and a desert (mud cake with ice cream).. A really nice dinner place for a long wonderful day of events!!

Thanks to Jason, the temporary lame one, for organizing all the events for the day, for getting us the exclusive use of the Go-Kart tracks and the laser tag arena.. A ‘big round’ of applause to him… Really hope you get well soon!Yup, I’ll end my day here… Nites

Reflection

28th Aug

I’ve just realised this as I was about to start writing the blog. When I was thinking about the title to put. Then a thought of why am I writing this blog for? Besides for my friends/people to know what HAS happened and what IS happening in my life, I thought of that it would be a good place for my own reflection of my thoughts. Human brain capacity can’t keep much in the mind. Or rather they could, just we couldn’t access it in the time we want always.

New thoughts will come in time to time. Old thoughts would still be there, but soon forgotten as time passes. It’s like a decision I’ve made now. It might be clear and remembered, for now. Soon if some other decisions, come into play, the old decision I made, although it might be something unrelated, but as more and more decisions take place, you will forget few previous things. Somewhere along that line la.. And if you who are reading this don’t understand this paragraph at all, it doesn’t matter much ler. Don’t be too bothered. No relevance. And also i hardly understand. lol =)

These 2-3 weeks, since the last post.. How should I put them… My life was quite empty at times.. It’s just a feeling of emptiness somewhere within.. Not sure how to explain further, coz I think it was pretty self-explained already.. Was passing those days through without any aims, but certain days, where i really look forward to.. that certain days, things are a bit different la.. not that empty.. ;p

Didn’t really got to talk to many about this though.. Or rather I did not chose to share much… Hmmm? I did consult a friend or two though.. It’s not that you are not close that i chose to not talk with you about it… Remember that! Especially those who read this. If you know I’ve got a blog, you are quite close edi!! But again, not all that know is close la i can say. You know I know. =) Not to say that I’m introvert, or that I like to keep things to myself, but sometimes just need some time with myself.. That’s why now decided to write it in blog… But then again, I writing this post is because of the reasons above.. ;p

Anyways, the emptiness is kinda the past now.. hehe… got back some spirit to get things done.. Although the road ahead is still blurrr, but I’m heading out to take it.. Just trust in the Lord that He will guide me through this, and that He will provide me with directions… Saying about God, I’m still on my journey to hear His voice… I have to say, it is a very challenging journey.. A very tough journey, but I shall continue to strive on, continue to persevere, and I believe that He will be with me through this journey, revealing more of himself, and teaching me to be a better person for Him… =)

Song: In Christ Alone

dreams..

I actually wanted to write this post 2-3 days back.. But somehow did not.. And I was so eager to write it… But somehow did not.. Now i have forgotten what I wanted to write… Hmmm, I shall write something anyways..

I remembered my dream few days back.. It was like so so real… I remembered it was like I’m in this room eating with a few person.. Then was chit chattin and eating… Suddenly I like heard someone called me to go to some room, so I went.. The  room was surrouded by mirror door sort of thing.. Then when I reached, I went to the middle of the room, some music started, and I was kinda started dancing, and I don’t know what I was dancing, but I just danced anyways.. At some point of time, I was questioning myself what am I doing, dancing but don’t know what to dance.. And it felt like I was being watched by many.. And it will be so awkward to just stop like that..

SO cont’d dancing.. Repeating the steps… I remembered there was a camera girl like taking the whole video of me.. Then out of the blue (out of nowhere) I saw my brothers coming from behind the mirror doors.. One of the least expected people I would expect to see (coz I felt like I was in Aussie in the dreams!! so seeing them is like so not possible!).. Then somehow I just turned around and I saw my parents approaching from behind.. Yeah parents and brothers.. whole family together, I can’t explain how I felt that time, but its a tremendous joy and happiness inside seeing all of them together…

But happy moments did not last long.. Soon after, I woke up form my dreams.. Wondering what was all of that about… Is it trying to convey anything to me (any message or some sort)? Am I home-sick? (I don’t think I am la) Or am I missing my family? Don’t understand all of these…. Somehow its a happy dream… But somehow its a pain somewhere deep within… So weird.. All of these… Happy and pain… And I don’t know why am I kinda tearing now as I write.. How should I face this? What should I do? God, I need you right now……….

“Losing the Love…. by Joy Enriquez”

back again…..

oooops just realised haven’t been updating for two weeks.. ;p the reason was pretty simple… Firstly, I couldn’t use internet for about a week thanks to those people who used up all the quota.. Zzzz sien man this kind of people… whoever it is doesn’t really matter la… Coz I wasn’t home much either that period.. =P

Okay, it was semester break for past 3 weeks… Din really feel it though, as always.. First week was mainly coz was helping out in the Born To Fly event… Second week, I kinda got locked out from my own room for about 3 days… Left my key inside while I manually lock my own door.. so smart! And so coincidently my landlord went to Sydney, thats why I need to stay out till 3 days.. But on 3rd day kinda tried to broke into the room (landlord only can come next day). Tried picking the lock. With Samm’s help, within half hour got to break it through! Wooots! Have my room back! SO niceee….. Was sleeping over Samm’s place few days before that… Thanks for providing a shelter for the homeless!

Soon after I broke into my room, the next day off for Great Ocean Road trip! The breaking in was kinda desperate move though… Coz if not, won’t be able to make it for the trip! Hehe… Great Ocean Road was cool! The trip in general la, not to say Great Ocean Road itself.. Thanks to the cool funky adventurous Bob, that planned the whole trip! Went ocean bathing… Went into a cave, tasted some blood-taste water in the cave.. Went for river crossing… Had a wonderful meal there at Port Campbell.. And the most beautiful was star-gazing!!! Wahlao, can’t be expressed by words how beautiful and how enjoyful it is, sitting in a dark place, where when you look up, the whole sky is full of stars!! front back left right centre! was beside the sea too.. So can hear sea-water blown to shore… And it tends to get a little chilly out there… But it was all worth it!! No regrets at all going for that trip… And another good part is that I got to drove at that trip! After 4 months not driving, so miss it.. so much freedom in it… The others that were also in the trip is Samm, Lionel, Vicky, Janine, and Kenneth. Wonderful memory.

The trip was only a 2-day 1-night trip.. Then came back rested for a day.. The next day left for camp.. located at Grantville, themed No Apologies… Its organised by United Cross Campus, Church of Christ.. The first church I went to… Brings back memories.. Had fun hanging around them again… Back to the theme of the camp, ‘No Apologies’. In the big picture, it means to make no apologies of what you believe and have faith in.. We must not shy to take hold of our faith.. Do not shy away from giving thanks to the Lord, or to share the Word.. Jesus did not really fit in to the world, but He made no apologies for it. He is not ashame of what He think is right.. The camp also really tested me on my faith on Him.. Still seeking Him for answers… I guess its at times like this is when either one will be pulled further away from Him, or one will grow further in faith in Him… I’m up for the latter one! =)

By choosing for the camp, at the same time equivalent to giving up a belated birthday party and a BBQ party! Eleanor was having her belated birthday party on saturday, and the BBQ at Bob’s was held on sunday noon.. Missed both of them… Would really love to attend, but oh well, I’m still glad I went for the camp! Heee

The mark of the end of the camp on sunday evening was also the mark of the start of a new semester..! Taking only 3 subjects this semester, hope I don’t messed it up.. ;p Classes are on Mondays-Thursdays… Have a 3-day weekend! For the first time since I ever started studying I guess? which its been 14 or 15 years of my education? lols.. Should be fun… Officially missed a lecture already though.. Hahas… The first lecture of the sem I missed.. But that should be alright.. Will try not to miss any more after this… =D

Yup so here I am, on my 3rd day of 2nd semester in Monash Clayton, Australia.. Goals for the semester… I shall set them.. =P

• To grow more in the relationship with Him.
• To get pumped up with knowledge for FOREX.
• To master guitar playing. (At least 5 full songs)

Can’t think of more. For now this is it. =)

“What the world will never take… by Hillsong United”

as inspirational as always

Watched before these videos. Posted them up before too. But the video was deleted by user. Just saw this again few minutes ago. Almost teared. Gonna post them up. Watch. Especially for those who always complaints about their life. It would do good to everyone who watched it though. =)

Cheers to you Nick. Thank you.